Do you know what I felt when I woke up this morning?
Nothing.
No passion, no spark, no faith, no heat.
Absolutely nothing.
I think I've really gotten past the point where I can be calling this a bad moment.
And it just, it terrifies me.
This is like worse than death to me.
The idea that this is the person that I’m gonna be from now on.
I need to change.
I have a support system here.
I have friends and family who love me.
But can they feel my love for them?
My support for them?
NO.
There’s, like, nothing.
I have no pulse.
What did you have for lunch today?
I used to have this appetite for food,
for my life……
......and it is just gone.
I wanna go some place where I can marvel at something.
But where?
I have not given myself two weeks of a breather to just deal with,
you know,
myself.
I just don’t know how to be here.
I wish I could go.
But I don’t know how.
*Quoted from the movie “Eat, Pray, Love”, 2010, with part of the dialogues modified.
